Dark Jewels 22-27

The Toltec Jewels Of Awareness: Egotism (22)

SUMMARY Egotism (22) was described by Theun Mares [1] as being the central dark jewel of awareness. The effects of egotism (22) ripple outwards in the form of the other dark jewels, like fear (24) or temptation (25). This may be considered in Christianity to be similar to the concept of Satan and the seven deadly sins [2]. Satan is generally associated with pride, which is a basis for self-love, vanity and possibly a game of one-upmanship. However egotism (22) can also be regarded as imperative in that it is crucial to a sense of healthy self-esteem, positive self-image and human dignity.

General Concepts

USES Egotism (22) is dangerous because of it’s sticky and inimicable, stubbornness, like a thicket or briar. Insecurity, abandonment issues and low self-worth, however, could call for a bolstering of self, while the “ego” is dismantled (Theun Mares advised this). The question of what precisely a  healthy sense of “ego” or “self-esteem” means or comprises, compared with “spiritual enlightenment” is a “last great question” for mankind. Perhaps the ego is “returned” after a period in the desert (6th stage) but only in a way which “supersedes” the capacity for self-denial. Da Free John was larger-than-life in the seventh stage of life, and is often criticised for having an “ego” problem. Some people think he didn’t integrate his enlightenment in a stable manner. Or perhaps he was simply “enlightened ego?” (i.e. 7th stage). If we don’t return ego, then we have no way to interact with the social mileu, versed as it is in the shift below (perhaps to Queen Tumomama – to Himiko, who may be on occasion linked with “The Jezebel Spirit.”)

ARCHETYPES All archetypes are seen as the activity of egotism itself. Ego is the divisive activity of individual self-expression, represented by a bubble of self. Each and every archetype or form of self-expression constitutes “ego.” To perceive the egoless reality does not make null-and-void the self and self-expression. To perceive the egoless reality must shatter the illusion of egotism, without shattering the self (Theun’s message). “Ego” must be re-included, in the seventh stage, from the dry desert of the sixth stage of life. To use archetype names “Juno,” “Jupiter,” “Shakti,” does not mean anything in relation to whether that God or Goddess is “helpful” in divine terms. Every archetype is “friend” in true terms, and each and every born human soul is “Da” as “The Goddess,” in myriad expression. It is only the fact that the same are not necessarily awakened. In the sixth stage of life, all judgments lay forever suspended, and the self enters a deep silence even in the midst of noiseful activity. As such, a “sixth stage Goddess” is a meaningless concept. “Sixth stage Goddess” apparently does appear, and is felt, but the “archetype” is not herself. “She” is simply “everyone.” In the sixth stage “The Goddess” has become everyone, and she cannot be separated or made comparable to any single discrete form (a fact which would comprise sixth stage idolatry or blasphemy). However, this becomes difficult because it is a last stand of egotism, and a hidden yet egotistic assertion that “Da cannot be Guru” may emerge for this reason. The domain called “selflessness” or “expansiveness,” associated with the void Shunyata, must give way to the “unqualified,” in the seventh stage of life, when one understands that to call “Da” (or any legitimate guru) “ego-deluded” could (if inspected) amount to the same as growing one’s own egotism (this can be self assessed with ruthless honesty). The activity of “strife,” as the Philosopher’s Stone, may be seen component and intrinsic to the thought process (why does criticising Da cause me to feel more content or well-off? Why must I criticise and place others down, in order that I feel uplifted? And “is this truly upliftment I feel?” (or merely more Philosopher’s Stone “Leavening” – a bolstering of self-importance only later to wallow in the mire of self-pity – the author’s own experience with the sixth to seventh stages of life – as he struggled to accept Adi Da as his Master). For who, indeed, will decry the legitimate Guru, and then turn about to go on his or her way, as a newly confident “spiritual master?” Indeed, this is an act of hidden egotism (22), assumed from the fact of the “divine recognition” of all sentient beings, within the sixth stage ego delusion (all are love and light, so I am exclusively and most importantly your spiritual teacher. Everyone is free, so I am the most important person on earth. I am the Messiah). I cannot be “nonjudgmental” (6) I can only be “happy” (7). I cannot turn away from my judgments and statutes, into enstatic avoidance and internalised bliss (6th stage). Intead, I must turn “towards” all other in relationship (i.e. not “avoiding relationship”), even as I do not allow myself to cling (in place, 7th stage). So how does the spiritual hierarchy function? The answer is that it may be better to hold the plan of God realisation up to the light of sobriety, whereby honest accreditation and a strict evaluation of lineage is balanced with the measure of personal attainment possible through independent hard work (in sadhana).

PHILOSOPHER’S STONE The story of human beings is a search to “understand”, a noble enough effort but is it also built upon the exercise of an uninspected egoity. This “exercise” or “method” is to get any “object” it contacts or touches under control through “knowledge”, and then to enclose or surround and without fully understanding the consequences of that control, ultimately destroy that “object” or “other” – The Athetheon, By Avatar Adi Da Samraj. Dark Jewel Egotism (22) is connected with the mystery of the Philosopher’s Stone. It transmutes everything it touches. In the Dragon Age computer game franchise, red lyrium is a substance that causes psychic distress to those who use it for it’s magical properties. The activity of the Philosopher’s Stone is transmutational and due to it’s bisexual activity, fiery; if I “perform to satisfaction” then I feel good about “myself” (in the form “Ego-I”) but “if I lose,” then I feel bad about “myself” (about my “ego”). The twist and knot in the very centre of this activity is a basis for moral terror – all of my life I have lived the ego illusion. A confrontation with either death or love could cause a shock to the bubble of self within which I am apparently trapped. However, the Bible also mentions red wine as healthy in small doses. Goddess Hestia, a Roman Goddess of hearth and home, brings familial warmth and comfort, and is likened to a glass of red wine now and again, where the fire itself is dangerously seductive. This is true, despite the fact that she is now identified as “the woman of wisdom” and “Ruach Ha Kodesh” type and form of the seventh stage of life. In the theory of dating and romance, men are “the plan” and women are the “intoxicant.” Even in the seventh stage of life, men are called to “contain” but not possess, the woman and her fire or elemental, primordial energy. An uncontained woman is prone to “Jezebel,” but man alone is a judgmental hawk (i.e. Jehovah) [the sixth stage “mold of man” is the inception point of sixth stage “Real Godlessness”]. The healed male-female relationship is a man who works hard, who comes home to a fireside warmth. He trades no balance between the two, and walks in the way of the heart.

FORBIDDEN FRUIT In the scriptures, Ha-Satan tempts Jesus to believe in his superhuman glory, by turning a rock into bread (Mt. 4:1-4), by casting himself down from a temple (Mt. 4:5-7), and by possessing the kingdoms of this world (Mt. 4:8-11). The occult is dangerous not only or precisely because of the dark demons which inhabit psyche, but due to the irrevocability and sticky-appeal of being unable to see past one’s own thoughts and emotions – the devil appears as all that is apparently “good.” The devil is “confidence,” and “strength” and “skill,” precisely when I am lacking in those same capabilities. The devil now appears when I am poor, lacking in support, and weak, such that the ego is akin to the “forbidden fruit,” ruddy-red on the surface. Now that I have been prepared through trials and weaknesses, I am offered that which I most desired…

OCCULTISM Mysteries such as Excalibur and the Holy Grail may be made prominent in the  psyche. It matters not from which arcehtypal pantheon or mythological source they stem, because all of them are designed to become the “precious” (Gollum observes the One Ring in The Lord of the Rings) object of ego-fascination. Narcissus gazed at himself in the mirror, falling in love with his own image. Hestia is the “red woman,” or “Harlot of Babylon,” a red mage and the Goddess of Simon Magus. Red magic could become the temptation to believe in the victory of the personal self, over everything which causes distress, and to enhance the power and spiritual capability of the self. Red magic is the source of white and black magic, and as such, “red magic” is “reason,” the basis of the current world system may, under “church age,” similarly take it’s inception or origin point. Don Juan Matus said the assemblage point of man was based on “the place of concern” and the position(s) of “reason” over the “point of no-pity” and “silent knowledge” (and “the antecedents of reason”) of past tribal civilisations. He encouraged “sobriety.” We may make an analogy to alcohol: “Red magic” is the first drink of the evening, and the red apple skin of the forbidden fruit is curative in some cases;  “white magic” is the onset of merriment, and in occult terms the gaining of knowledge pertinent to success; “Black magic” is the drunken staggering or uncouth result of too much alcohol – no matter our prior successes in life – the “forbidden fruit” has it’s asking price, and has taken it’s toll on life purposes, and upon physical health or mental wellbeing.


  1. The Mists of Dragon Lore; The Toltec Teachings, Volume 3. Theun Mares. 1998 Lionheart Publishing.
  2. “Seven Deadly Sins.” New World Encyclopedia. Link newworldencyclopedia.org/entry/Seven_Deadly_Sins. Accessed 16/03/17.

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